Decisions Decision

Yes, I am going for an ominous title because I want people to read it, but I don't want to give away too much.  It's nothing particularly interesting, just a rather microcosmal dilemma.



So here's the deal --  the former love of my life is getting married soon.

Now before you jump to conclusions, I just want to say that I actually am very happy for her.  You see, she meant the world to me and even though we didn't work out I will always care for her, so her happiness matters to me.  Which, if you know the story, is the only reason I let things go, was for her.

Anywho, I'm at ends with myself as to if I should attend this wedding.

She asked me if I wanted an invitation to which I said yes, and if she didn't want me to come then she wouldn't have offered.  I should also add that if I do not go it will probably not even be that big of a deal at all.  Period.

Now, should I really be going to this?  I mean, she was kind of a big deal, like a really big deal.  And I feel that if I don't go, it's kinda letting down that unspoken commitment I made to always care for her and her happiness.  I also feel that by going it sort of closes the book on that part of my life.

I feel that by not going, it shows that I'm not over her even though that is completely not the case.  I really am over her, and I will always love her, not in the romantic sort of way, but more like admiration.

So for the presumably 5 readers I get of this post, feel free to say something.  I do think I should go, because we were both at one point in time extremely important to each other and I don't think that should ever really diminish just because we are not romantically linked.

Lastly, if I go should I have a date?  I feel that this one is a yes.